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One of the lead actors, Justin Pierce, tragically committed suicide by hanging in a Las Vegas hotel on July 14, 2000, at the young age of 25. His posthumous work, "Looking for Leonard," was subsequently delayed for two years before its release.

I loathe the ugly, the stupid, those obsessed with just wanting to fuck. But what actually makes youth and growing up even remotely beautiful? Is it being pretty, smart, and abstinent? To me, that's still a disgusting process. It's so easy to do wrong without even realizing it, to effortlessly ruin your entire life, while rebuilding it is like climbing to the heavens. Fuck.

Youth is about possession. It's about voraciously having sex, smoking weed, bonding with your bros, telling crude jokes, binge drinking, stealing. It's about doing everything that ignites the senses and discarding anything that holds you back – pure, unadulterated youth. The hunt for virginity is simply an extreme manifestation of this need to possess. AIDS is the price paid.

This damn director is trying to tell us: the more you fuck, the safer you are. If you don't fuck, you're a fool. But if you get knocked up after just one time, you deserve to be fucked to death. I'm so fucked up.

Can't believe it's been over a decade. Back then, I was watching it on VCD, had to do it sneakily. The murky picture quality only amplified the despair of the grim plot. The lengthy sex scenes surprisingly repulsed me, because life isn't beautiful.